Getting Real

So again... I have been missing for a month!

I got to thinking about it this evening and I really have no reason other then I am exhausted!!

I have time to blog in the evening and (sometimes) at nap time. But honestly I am exhausted.

Being a mom of 4 young kids is not easy work.

It is:

2am feedings

5:30 wake up calls

Breakfast for a mini army

Cleaning, dressing and grooming everyone

2hrs & over 80 miles in the car for drop off/pick ups

A dozen or so diaper changes

Correcting, encouraging, teaching in everything we do

Attempting to keep my cool

Rocking, nursing, praying for nap time

Never ending cleaning, sweeping, picking up

Laundry and laundry

Kissing boo boos, wiping noses, breathing treatments

Entertaining and story time

Preparing lunch, snacks and treats

Discipline, time outs, frustration

Homework, puzzle making, swing pushing

NOISY

Evening melt downs

Double recipe dinners

Assembly line baths

Snuggle rotations

And if I am lucky, a few minutes with Daddy before we both pass out.

Let me be clear... I am NOT complaining. I love staying home with my kids, we make a lot of sacrifices so that I can be the one to raise them. But it is an exhausting job. And the sleep deprivation and consistent mental and physical exertion is finally catching up to me!

So in my "free time", I try to recoup and reenergize for whatever is coming next. And even then my mind goes to the million worries and thoughts of the day.

But, I miss blogging. I remember it being therapeutic to look back on the day. Blogging brings out the good parts of our days and reminds me that there is a bigger picture. It also helps me remember our days... Yes, it's sad that I have to be reminded of our days. But honestly, our life is racing by in a blur lately!

So here I go again... No promises and no plans. Just a single statement.

I am going to blog again:)