Lately I have been stuck in this limbo between my "ideal" life and reality.
All in all, my life is awesome. I love where I am and how we have gotten here. But there are some things that are coming up that I always thought would go one way... and now they are going another.
It bums me out because I feel like most of the reason they are going another way is because of me. But I am to the point where I have to do what is best for me and the peace in our household.
Are you following??
Here is what I am beginning to see as reality...
For the last few years we have planned to home school our kids. I took Bubba Love out of preschool and home schooled the kids this year. It has been fun(ish), but really exhausting and trying on me. I LOVE my kids and I want to spend time with them, but I think we are all ready for a break from each other. The sibling fighting and rivalry have gotten out of control lately and I think it is because they are ALWAYS together. I can't take it anymore and I have started to loose my patience. Not to mention the fact that I am going to be adding another baby to mix. Mama needs some help! Soooooo after a lot of prayer and a lot of discussion, Daddy and I have decided to put both of the kids into school next year. Bubba Love into kindergarten and Buddy Boy into preschool. It makes me sad just thinking about it... all the reasons we wanted to home school and all the reasons I really don't like public school. But when looking at the whole picture, sending them to school is going to be best for our home right now. Maybe that will change in a few years... we shall see.